Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Lagumu

Siang itu terik sekali. Ditambah suasana hari Minggu di Orchard Road yang hiruk pikuk, beberapa orang menenteng kantong-kantong kertas bertuliskan PRADA, GUCCI, HERMES dengan wajah puas, dan orang lain keluar masuk berpindah dari satu mall ke mall yang lain, berburu sale.
Aku baru saja kembali dari Ducktour, sudah setengah hari berjalan dari toko ke toko, mall ke mall, MRT ke MRT, satu dengan yang lainnya, sampai rasanya aku tidak bisa merasakan kakiku sendiri. Lalu aku duduk di pelataran salah satu mall, di belakang photo booth promosi sabun pembersih wajah pria yang entah aku lupa merknya, 2 orang model tersenyum ramah ke setiap pejalan kaki yang lewat, membuatku heran bagaimana mereka masih bisa tersenyum ketika panasnya luar biasa begitu...
Di photo booth itu ada 2 buah sound system berukuran sedang yang memainkan lagu-lagu yang beberapa aku kenal, lumayan menghibur aku yang sudah lelah dan kehilangan mood berbelanja. Sampai pada akhirnya, mereka memainkan lagumu.



Sudah jauh-jauh aku meninggalkan rumah. Bermil-mil aku pergi, untuk sejenak melupakan hal-hal yang yang tidak bisa aku abaikan jika aku di sini. Namun kamu tetap mengikutiku.
Kamu egois sekali.
Bisa tidak, kamu bersembunyi dulu, sebentar saja?
Tapi, jangan jauh-jauh, nanti kamu lupa jalan pulang. Berjalanlah di belakangku, supaya aku bisa menengok sekali-kali.

Dan tolong, berhenti menyanyikan lagu itu. Aku tahu itu lagumu, tapi ini salahmu juga sampai aku merasa itu juga laguku.
Atau paling tidak, pelankan suaramu sedikit. Karena bagaimanapun juga, aku suka suaramu.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Cheesy, no?

This post will sound cheesy but....

I thought I'm over you...but apparently I'm not. I saw you couple days ago, after months, and I still felt weird. It was more like a fight, in my mind, about if it's good to see you or if it's not. And it ended in a draw.

Then the band started playing...
"Mungkin memang ku yang harus mengerti, bila ku bukan yang ingin kau miliki...
Salahkah ku bila kaulah yang ada di hatiku?
...adakah ku sedikit di hatimu?"
Oh. The entire universe conspired to make me feel like this. I know that.

Btw this video doesn't help, does it?


Saturday, December 31, 2011

Bonne Année!

"Think back and replay your year; if it doesn’t bring you tears of either joy or sadness, consider it wasted."
-Ally McBeal-

I can't believe today is the last day of this year. Last day of 2011.
It has been a hell of a year. Some went good, some didn't. You know, life.
I'm so grateful that I got accepted into college, or I think I am, I don't know I just haven't figured that yet. But college brought me some new friends, those incredible people. And meeting them was, I think, the best thing happened to me this year.
The worst thing happened to me was that I graduated from high school. That I had to say goodbye to a place that had given me so much to learn. And all those memories. Those friends of mine, classmates, the boys, and all the corny things of high school... You guys are, sure as hell, gonna stay in me, forever. You remember that, okay?
And there were some things which, well, I kinda regret. That wasn't the best of me. I'll do better, promise.
I have so many hopes for next year, of course. But since I have final exams 3 days from now, let's work on that first. And, no, I don't think I'll have new year's resolution this year. Because I will likely forget those in a week. I've learned my lesson, ha! I'll just go with the wind. Oh yeaah I'm actually saying that
Anyway, have a great new year's eve (while I'm gonna spend mine watching some corny romance movies)! May you have a better year ahead!
Happy new year, x

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Best Grey's Anatomy Quote

"And sometimes, against all odds, against all logic, we still hope..."
Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Me Going Dark and Twisty

I don't know why do my love life suck. And it's a funny thing to say since I'm only 19 years old and I'm talking about love. But it still is a relationship, so it still is love, and it still does hurt.
Look, I'm 19 years old and I've been in 6 relationships with 6 different people. Is it so wrong for me to look for a stable relationship? It's not like I'm gonna marry someone tomorrow or looking someone I'm gonna spend the rest of my life or something. It's just...stable relationship seems working on me and my creepy love life. I just need someone who's gonna stick around, no such thing as running away. I'm not a big fan of chasing. I need someone who's gonna stay. I need someone who is single, not a kind-of-single, but literally single, no girl going crazy over him, because I'm so freakin done dealing with that kind of crap. I just need someone who's not gonna make me end up saying "MY LOVE LIFE SUCKS!" And I definitely need someone who's gonna make me laughing over this post and trying to remember what did I think when I decided to write this stupid post in the first place.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

For you, Ma'am

There has been an misunderstanding.

I don't know who you are. I really don't. And I can only assume that you'd read this, since you're so good at it, stalking. I don't know what's your problem with me. I don't even know you.
So here's the thing. I won't say none of them were true, what you said. Because some of them were. Yes I was there. I was there at that house on that day. But it wasn't like anything you thought it was. And I can't tell you what that is about because I'm sure you can't handle that. For that, you were true. But, me, and the chasing? Not true. It's not like I'm kind of lunatic person looking for his attention or something.
I'm just a friend. And I believe you have nothing to be afraid of.
And for the record, it's not okay. You talking about me behind my back, blaming me. It is not okay. And I hope you're smart enough to understand.

Reblogged

"You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you're attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It's never been about what you want, it's always everyone's needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you're okay with that, because they're in your life and that's all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you'll still be there for them. Because that's you, that's who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it's so hard for you to let him go."
source

Oh. Right in so many levels.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Quoted

"He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you."
-Bob Marley-