Nagla the Anonymuncle.

Lagumu

2012-01-17T23:06:00.001+07:00

Siang itu terik sekali. Ditambah suasana hari Minggu di Orchard Road yang hiruk pikuk, beberapa orang menenteng kantong-kantong kertas bertuliskan PRADA, GUCCI, HERMES dengan wajah puas, dan orang lain keluar masuk berpindah dari satu mall ke mall yang lain, berburu sale.

Aku baru saja kembali dari Ducktour, sudah setengah hari berjalan dari toko ke toko, mall ke mall, MRT ke MRT, satu dengan yang lainnya, sampai rasanya aku tidak bisa merasakan kakiku sendiri. Lalu aku duduk di pelataran salah satu mall, di belakang photo booth promosi sabun pembersih wajah pria yang entah aku lupa merknya, 2 orang model tersenyum ramah ke setiap pejalan kaki yang lewat, membuatku heran bagaimana mereka masih bisa tersenyum ketika panasnya luar biasa begitu...

Di photo booth itu ada 2 buah sound system berukuran sedang yang memainkan lagu-lagu yang beberapa aku kenal, lumayan menghibur aku yang sudah lelah dan kehilangan mood berbelanja. Sampai pada akhirnya, mereka memainkan lagumu.

Sudah jauh-jauh aku meninggalkan rumah. Bermil-mil aku pergi, untuk sejenak melupakan hal-hal yang yang tidak bisa aku abaikan jika aku di sini. Namun kamu tetap mengikutiku.

Kamu egois sekali.

Bisa tidak, kamu bersembunyi dulu, sebentar saja?

Tapi, jangan jauh-jauh, nanti kamu lupa jalan pulang. Berjalanlah di belakangku, supaya aku bisa menengok sekali-kali.

Dan tolong, berhenti menyanyikan lagu itu. Aku tahu itu lagumu, tapi ini salahmu juga sampai aku merasa itu juga laguku.

Atau paling tidak, pelankan suaramu sedikit. Karena bagaimanapun juga, aku suka suaramu.

Cheesy, no?

2012-01-11T00:00:00.001+07:00

This post will sound cheesy but....

I thought I'm over you...but apparently I'm not. I saw you couple days ago, after months, and I still felt weird. It was more like a fight, in my mind, about if it's good to see you or if it's not. And it ended in a draw.

Then the band started playing...

"Mungkin memang ku yang harus mengerti, bila ku bukan yang ingin kau miliki...
Salahkah ku bila kaulah yang ada di hatiku?
...adakah ku sedikit di hatimu?"

Oh. The entire universe conspired to make me feel like this. I know that.

Btw this video doesn't help, does it?

Bonne Année!

2011-12-31T12:17:00.000+07:00

"Think back and replay your year; if it doesn’t bring you tears of either joy or sadness, consider it wasted."

-Ally McBeal-

I can't believe today is the last day of this year. Last day of 2011.
It has been a hell of a year. Some went good, some didn't. You know, life.
I'm so grateful that I got accepted into college, or I think I am, I don't know I just haven't figured that yet. But college brought me some new friends, those incredible people. And meeting them was, I think, the best thing happened to me this year.
The worst thing happened to me was that I graduated from high school. That I had to say goodbye to a place that had given me so much to learn. And all those memories. Those friends of mine, classmates, the boys, and all the corny things of high school... You guys are, sure as hell, gonna stay in me, forever. You remember that, okay?
And there were some things which, well, I kinda regret. That wasn't the best of me. I'll do better, promise.
I have so many hopes for next year, of course. But since I have final exams 3 days from now, let's work on that first. And, no, I don't think I'll have new year's resolution this year. Because I will likely forget those in a week. I've learned my lesson, ha! I'll just go with the wind. Oh yeaah I'm actually saying that
Anyway, have a great new year's eve (while I'm gonna spend mine watching some corny romance movies)! May you have a better year ahead!
Happy new year, x

Grey's Anatomy S08E10 Promo

2011-12-30T06:51:00.001+07:00

Januay 5th! Can't wait!

Best Grey's Anatomy Quote

2011-12-13T20:38:00.000+07:00

"And sometimes, against all odds, against all logic, we still hope..."

Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy

Happy Birthday Bejo!

2011-12-06T17:54:00.001+07:00

Me Going Dark and Twisty

2011-11-30T18:04:00.001+07:00

I don't know why do my love life suck. And it's a funny thing to say since I'm only 19 years old and I'm talking about love. But it still is a relationship, so it still is love, and it still does hurt.
Look, I'm 19 years old and I've been in 6 relationships with 6 different people. Is it so wrong for me to look for a stable relationship? It's not like I'm gonna marry someone tomorrow or looking someone I'm gonna spend the rest of my life or something. It's just...stable relationship seems working on me and my creepy love life. I just need someone who's gonna stick around, no such thing as running away. I'm not a big fan of chasing. I need someone who's gonna stay. I need someone who is single, not a kind-of-single, but literally single, no girl going crazy over him, because I'm so freakin done dealing with that kind of crap. I just need someone who's not gonna make me end up saying "MY LOVE LIFE SUCKS!" And I definitely need someone who's gonna make me laughing over this post and trying to remember what did I think when I decided to write this stupid post in the first place.

For you, Ma'am

2011-11-29T23:54:00.001+07:00

There has been an misunderstanding.

I don't know who you are. I really don't. And I can only assume that you'd read this, since you're so good at it, stalking. I don't know what's your problem with me. I don't even know you.
So here's the thing. I won't say none of them were true, what you said. Because some of them were. Yes I was there. I was there at that house on that day. But it wasn't like anything you thought it was. And I can't tell you what that is about because I'm sure you can't handle that. For that, you were true. But, me, and the chasing? Not true. It's not like I'm kind of lunatic person looking for his attention or something.
I'm just a friend. And I believe you have nothing to be afraid of.
And for the record, it's not okay. You talking about me behind my back, blaming me. It is not okay. And I hope you're smart enough to understand.

Reblogged

2011-11-29T18:51:00.001+07:00

"You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you're attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It's never been about what you want, it's always everyone's needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you're okay with that, because they're in your life and that's all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you'll still be there for them. Because that's you, that's who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it's so hard for you to let him go."

source

Oh. Right in so many levels.

Quoted

2011-11-27T21:11:00.001+07:00

"He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you."

-Bob Marley-

Happy Birthday!

2011-11-27T21:02:00.001+07:00

Yes, it was

2011-11-14T00:19:00.001+07:00

♪ It must have been love, but it's over now.. It must have been good, but I lost it somehow.. It must have been love, but it's over now.. From the moment we touched till the time had run out ♪

Funny. Funny how life goes and time flies. Funny how feeling grows and people change.
One day you are just an old-elementary-school-friend that I haven't meet in a long time, and the other day you are the person I wanna meet every single second of my day.
One day you are just a friend I don't even remember I had, and the other day I find myself missing you so massively much.

It was not exactly love at the first sight. But it turns out that...it was love.

Oh yes...you so are

2011-11-08T22:13:00.003+07:00

Pink - Fuckin' Perfect

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way, it's all good", It didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing
Under estimated, look, I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than fuckin' perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean,
When you talk about yourself, you are wrong
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead.

So complicated,
Look how big you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game.
It's enough, I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/p/pink/fuckin_perfect.html ]
Oh, Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me

The whole world stared so I swallowed the fear,
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line and we try, try, try,
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, coz they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
We change ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that? Why do I do that?
(Why do I do that?)

Tik...tok...

2011-11-05T01:51:00.001+07:00

Sudah sejam ia duduk dan menunggu, sendiri di halte yang bising, mulai bosan. Sesekali ia mendangak ketika ia melihat bus, yang ternyata, hanya lewat. Terkadang ia memandang kesal sambil lalu ketika bus berhenti di depannya, bus dengan tujuan lain. Dan suatu ketika ia berseri saat bus yang ia tunggu muncul, seketika terhentak dari tempat duduknya, setengah melompat, bersiap menaiki bus yang ternyata penuh, tak menyisakan satu tempat pun untuknya. Bus itu lalu menghambur pergi, seakan mengejek.
Ia lalu kembali duduk dan menunggu, entah sampai kapan, karena bagaimanapun...ia harus pulang.

...we're not enemies, we just disagree ♪

2011-11-04T12:43:00.000+07:00

"Can't you see I'm trying, I don't even like it
I just lied to get to your apartment
Now I'm staying here just for a while
I can't think cause, I'm just way too tired
Is this it? Is this it? Is this it?"

Aku sedang berjalan-jalan menelusuri lapak-lapak pakaian di situs sejuta umat Facebook saat tiba-tiba, Winamp bulukku memainkan lagu itu. Lagu lawas dari The Strokes yang entah kenapa, mengingatkan aku pada kamu.

Bukan. Bukan entah mengapa. Aku tahu mengapa. Aku tahu jelas kenapa suara Julian Casablancas mengingatkanku pada kamu. Karena itu lagumu. Entah berapa juta kali kamu menyenandungkan lagu itu di mobil dalam perjalanan pulang. Yang aku ingat, selalu.

Kamu. Bagaimana kabarmu?
Aku tak ingat kapan kita terakhir mengobrol, lebih-lebih bertatap muka. Yang aku ingat cuma percakapan terakhir kita yang membuatku mual tiap kali aku mengingatnya, apa yang aku pikirkan waktu itu?
Aku juga tak ingat bagaimana semua berawal, yang aku ingat cuma bagaimana itu bisa berakhir. Aku.
Malah, sebenarnya aku ragu. Apakah kita benar-benar berawal, terlebih berakhir? Atau alih-alih yang terjadi adalah sesuatu, itu semua cuma ilusi yang aku karang karena kamu datang di waktu yang tepat.
Mungkin tidka tepat kalau aku bilang aku tidak ingat. Mungkin yang benar adalah...aku tak pernah paham.

Kamu. Bagaimana kabarmu?
Aku rindu. Sedikit. Ya, sedikit. Sedikit sekali sampai kadang aku tak tahu rasa sakit itu ada dimana.
Aku rindu kamu. Karena kamu adalah masalahku yang belum selesai.

What I've been dealing with lately

2011-10-22T20:52:00.000+07:00

Hi! Been a while, rite?
There are too much going on with my life right now you know. College...seniors...friends...love.
Yep. I'm a college student now. Been 2 months, I think. I kinda enjoy it, I mean even with all those tasks, I get to learn new things from zero and meet new friends and start a new way of living, it's all just challenging for me.
But yes, college is not all about joy. There are other things that, well, suck. Like the orientation period. At my college, that's kinda complicated and energy-and-time-consuming being a freshmen. The only reason I'm dong this is just because I get to be with my friends all the time and it just feels nice.
And even though I love my new friends, like really really do, I still miss my high school friends. Oh God they're just the best. It's different you know, what I have with them. It's like we understand each other without having the need to say anything. I miss them, like all the time. And it sucks that we always find it hard to meet each other because of our clashed schedule.
Oh...love...you know how friggin many times I talk about this? I'm so done. I've had enuffff

PS: This is satnite and I'm doing tasks. Okay this is creepy

Life.

2011-10-12T22:28:00.001+07:00

Perfect Two...are we?

2011-09-27T18:19:00.003+07:00

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain
And I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date
You can be the hero
And I can be your sidekick
You can be the tear That I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or u can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be without you
'Cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see that we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause you're the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as were together

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

Ugly duckling

2011-09-26T00:16:00.001+07:00

You know that guy on a romantic movie? Yes, that guy who does cheesy things to his girl, like throwing pebbles to her window when she's mad, standing in front of her door with pizza in his hand, singing her to sleep and kind of things.
I have a crush on someone, and I feel like he's one of those guys. Well he never literally thrown pebbles to my window (like I have one!), but he's definitely that kind of guy. He sees things, you know. He remembers every little details. He has a voice which is somehow relaxing, literally. And everytime I see him, I feel a blood flow with a wave of a serenity. And I don't know if it's butterfly in my stomach, because I feel like the whole zoo are running in my belly everytime I'm with him. Trust me, it happens all the time.
I'm not hoping anything, you know... Well, who the hell am I to do so anyway? That kind of guys aren't for girl like me. Pathetic, I know. But I'm just being realistic. He's just...too good to be true.

"If this was a movie you'd be here by now...♪"

...and I will try to fix you ♪

2011-09-12T22:34:00.001+07:00

Coldplay - Fix You
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

I'm not saying that I hate you, though

2011-09-11T20:21:00.001+07:00

I hate falling in love. I hate how things now matter. I hate how every little detail become so important for me to notice. I hate how I know some unimportant stupid little facts but I remember them anyway. I hate how I'm no longer in control of making my mood goes up and down. I hate that there's someone in me. Every time I check...he's there. He's in every place I'm looking at, hiding between 2 walls called expectation and reality.
I've studied physics at school. But still, I can't decide what force is working between the two of us. It's like, when I come closer, he walks away. When I turn back and walk away, he runs to me.
I've studied chemistry, but I can't recognize what type of chemistry is going on. I didn't remember mixing wrong compounds, but now I can feel myself turning hot and cold at the same time.
And I, sure as hell, have studied math for yearsssss and yet I can't solve the problem given. I don't know which formula I should use, the equation left untouched. I simply can't do the math, what you plus me is...
I hate falling in love. Because I can never learn and be better at that. Everytime I fall in love, it feels just different. I've never had two exact same feelings. And it's just confusing.
I hate falling in love...even with you.

Because it just...sucks.

Did I mention that they're awesome?

2011-09-11T09:27:00.001+07:00

First week of college? Hectic.
I never thought it'd be this energy-consuming. We have like billion tasks to do. And it's just the beginning. Who knows what we'd be given next week? More paper? More exams? More research? Geez.
Some of my friends have gone crazy just because the academic tasks. Not to mention the tasks given by our senior. Mad mad mad week.
But thanks God, at least, we're all in this together. After that crazy week, I spent the whole Saturday with them. And all the pressure just disappeared. Like nothing happened. Hearing them laughing at things which weren't funny at all, I found that as a funny thing, which was relaxing. And I love how they make thing simpler than it really is. I love how they make me laugh even when it seems impossible to.
"Why do you look so sad? Tell us. That's what friends are for," they said. I know it sounds cliche, I know it sounds like they're reading a line in a song or something. But it sounds just fine for me. It sounds calming for me.
God I love them.

Get yourself a mirror!

2011-09-07T23:33:00.001+07:00

I'm telling you now. This is not an offensive post. It really isn't.

I think, it is okay to have some close friends. It is okay to have a group of friends to hang out with. And it is okay to have people you can share your story with. It is okay.
You know what I love about them? Because they don't give a damn about where the hell I came from. Because they don't see me as 'his' daughter. When you do.
Yes I love them and I love hanging out with them I love sharing stories with them I love being with them and I love love love telling jokes with them.
I don't see those as problems.
And I don't care if you do.

Late Birthday Surprise

2011-09-06T22:45:00.001+07:00

Remember when I told you about my birthday? It's not finished. It is now, but it wasn't before.
So apparently, my best buddy, Fisi, had a little surprise plan for me.
It was 9 PM and I was at my house, with some friends, doing tasks, when he came out of nowhere, standing in front of my door, wishing me a happy birthday. He said he brought me a little present but he left it in his car so I followed him to where he parked his car, where, one of my college friend, who I didn't realize that he was missing couple minutes before, standing right there with his hands on his back. He told me to close my eyes and not open it until he says so. So I closed my eyes, feeling weird, but I did it anyway. Then he told me to open my eyes, and when I did, I saw him holding a rose and gave it to me. Wasn't that the silliest thing everrrrrr?
I didn't know what Fisi had planned but, God, I was embarrassed to death. Seriously, Fis, what the hell was on your mind huuhhhhh? Couldn't help myself, I yelled at him, like literally, I was screaming. But it wasn't that I was angry. I was so happy I couldn't help myself. I was so surprised I acted really weird :/

Fis....I seriously don't get your idea of a surprise...but that was waaaaaaay sweet of you. So, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
You're so annoying sometimes, but that what makes you you, and I love you that way, you're my best guy friend in this earth.
Thank you, for the best birthday gift ever...you know I didn't really ask for it.
Thank you for being so sweet and lovely and sooooo on
Me loves ya, xx

We sure are cute for two ugly people

2011-09-06T22:07:00.000+07:00

Moldy Peaches - Anyone Else But You
You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I will find my nitch in your car
With my mp3 DVD rumple-packed guitar
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Don Quixote was a steel driving man
My name is Adam I'm your biggest fan
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Squinched up your face and did a dance
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du
But you

We really are....I think.

Happy birthday Nagla!

2011-09-04T09:28:00.001+07:00

It's official. I'm 19 and I'm not a teenager anymore...I guess.
Thank you yaa Allah, for such a wonderful life I'm living now.
What's so special about my birthday this year? I don't know...maybe because I had like 90 BBM chats wishing me a happy birthday...or hundreds of mentions on twitter...or that it's simply because my friends are awesome and I love them.
Who was the first person wishing me happy birthday? You guess. But if I were you, I'll be more interested about who was the last person. Not gonna tell you though, sorry :p

Mmm, thank you, for being here, at my day...even if it was not your idea, even if you were just being a good friend. But still, thank you... It means a lot. Haven't met you, like, forever, and I miss you all the time, and it helps. Again, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Take care.

P.S. Well, like you don't know it already

3 tahun

2011-08-26T23:42:00.004+07:00

3 tahun. Kurang lebih 3 tahun. 3 tahun waktu yang dihadiahkan Allah untuk aku nikmati bersama mereka. 3 tahun yang kalau aku ceritakan di sini, mungkin Blogger akan menerbitkan tulisanku menjadi novel karena terlalu panjang, siapa yang tahu. 3 tahun yang tidak akan pernah sukses aku gambarkan dalam rangkaian huruf dan kata. 3 tahun yang kalau aku ceritakan secara lisan, mulutku akan berbuih lalu aku dilarikan ke rumah sakit karena radang pita suara. 3 tahun yang...

Aku tidak akan menuliskan peristiwa atau kejadian atau pengalaman yang telah aku alami bersama mereka, karena mungkin tidak akan menarik untuk kalian. Karena jariku akan kaku pada akhirnya. Karena...kisah itu hanya milik kami.

Aku cuma ingin menggambarkan apa arti mereka buatku.

....Apa ya arti mereka buatku?
Aku tak tahu, apakah ada di dunia ini paket lengkap kombinasi antara sahabat + kekasih + keluarga, tapi kurang lebih, itulah gambaranku tentang mereka. Bagaikan paket komplit yang aku tahu aku tak berhak meminta yang lebih, karena mereka sudah berlebihan untukku, dalam arti yang baik tentu saja.
Sahabat...karena mereka selalu ada. Dalam naik turunnya hidupku, dalam prosesku menuju, entahlah, orang bilang namanya kedewasaan. Mereka selalu di sana. Suka atau tidak, mereka selalu dan akan tetap di sana.
Kekasih...bagiku kekasih adalah orang yang akan selalu mendukung kita, di setiap situasi, ketika kita di atas, maupun ketika kita terjerembap di bawah. Kekasih, menurutku, adalah orang yang membuat kita selalu merasa cantik, merasa istimewa. Dan itulah yang dilakukan mereka. Mereka mendukungku, meski aku kadang tak paham juga dengan jalan pikiranku. Dan mereka membuatku merasa istimewa, bahkan ketika orang lain tak menyadari adanya aku.
Keluarga...kamu tahu? Keluarga adalah tempat dimana kamu tidak harus berusaha. Tidak harus berusaha untuk menjadi apa yang orang inginkan, berusaha menjadi sosok yang sama sekali bukan kamu. Effortless. Bersama mereka itu effortless. Mudah semudah bernafas. Aku ingat jelas kata mama, "Dalam hidup, nantinya akan ada mantan teman, mantan kekasih, bahkan mantan suami...tapi tidak akan pernah kamu menemui mantan saudara, mantan keluarga. Tidak akan pernah." Dan bersama mereka...aku tahu mamaku benar.

3 tahun. Waktu yang panjang...namun juga waktu yang sangat pendek. Terlalu cepat rasanya waktu itu berjalan. Belum habis tawaku, belum juga habis air mataku. Seakan menagih, untuk ku habiskan lagi bersama mereka.
Namun mungkin, Allah punya rencana yang lebih baik untukku dan untuk mereka. Kamu tahu sendiri kan, yang sedikit itu yang spesial. Yang sebentar itu yang akan selalu kamu ingat. Mungkin Allah memang sengaja memberikan waktu yang singkat supaya itu terkenang, supaya itu tetap spesial.

Kami mungkin memang tak lagi bersama secara raga. Kami dipisahkan oleh jarak, oleh mimpi kami masing-masing. Tapi aku tau kami tidak terpisah secara batin. Di hati, hatiku paling tidak, kami tetap satu. Tetap 28 siswa-siswi berseragam putih abu-abu yang menangis dan tertawa bersama. Dan akan tetap seperti itu.

Suatu saat nanti, ketika kami dipertemukan lagi. Ketika kami sudah menjadi raja dalam mimpi kami masing-masing, kami akan mengingat 3 tahun ini. 28 orang dari kami akan mengenang 3 tahun dan sejuta ceritanya, lalu tertawa bersama.

Karena...3 tahun ini untuk selamanya.

Spesial, untuk 27 orang sahabat, kekasih, dan keluargaku...
Abyan Irzaldy, Adhgha Nizar, Aditya Sita Sari, Agassi Ramadhan, Agi Arbianto, Anya Azaria, Arkanty Septyvergy, Bagus Wibowo, Binar Larasanti, Cicilia Deandra, Deddy Laudryansyah, Diah Ariesa, Dikstra Dhyaksatama, Hesty Rohmatul, I Made Artha, Ibnu Surya, Jeconia Agrippina, Junjungan Manggalacakti, Made Pury, Mirza Suryo Adi, Muhammad Muzakky, Putri Fary, Rachmat Calief, Taufiqur Rahman, Wicaksono Indra, Yugi Pratama, Zuhroni Ali Fikri.

A lesson for me, noted

2011-08-22T21:03:00.004+07:00

"So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."

-Marilyn Monroe-

Look at us. Look at how many times we're being so ungrateful about our life. We curse life, we get mad at things which don't work out, we yelled at people just because we're having a bad day, and some other things. Look at what we've done. Look at how much negative energy coming out from our soul.
Why don't we make things simple? Why don't we keep calm and see what's gonna happen next? Why don't we just go with the flow?
Life's short. Too short you don't notice it's coming to its end.
It's Ramadhan, people. What a perfect time to be a brand-new-even-better person!
Spread the positive things, spread the love.
Happy holly-days! :-)

2011-08-19T23:25:00.001+07:00

Dulunya sepi

2011-08-19T22:26:00.003+07:00

Aku bukan orang yang banyak bicara. Aku suka tertawa, aku suka bercanda, tapi aku tak bicara.
Namun kamu tak berhenti tanyakan hal padaku.
Aku pun menjawab, dan kata tak berhenti keluar dari mulut yang biasanya sunyi ini.

Jangan sampai terpeleset lagi, kata mereka.

Ada yang bilang

2011-08-18T21:22:00.002+07:00

Ada yang bilang jatuh cinta itu hangat. Ada yang bilang jatuh cinta itu rapuh. Ada yang bilang jatuh cinta itu fluktuatif. Banyak yang bilang jatuh cinta berjuta rasanya.
Kali ini, aku bilang, jatuh cinta itu merdu.

Kata Mereka Aku Jago Kandang

2011-08-14T21:14:00.002+07:00

Beraniku cuma di sini katanya. Cuma di barisan kata-kata yang membosankan ini. Cuma di situs gratisan yang tak ku tahu asal usulnya. Mungkin memang benar kata mereka... Rasanya aman sekali di sini. Tak ada yang protes dan tak ada orang-orang usil menyebalkan yang tak berhenti bertanya. Aku pun tak perlu berhutang penjelasan pada siapa-siapa selain diriku sendiri atas kebenaran kata-kataku.
Karena di sini ku tak perlu hiraukan reaksi orang. Karena di sini ku bisa abaikan rasa takutku akan percakapan langsung yang panjang. Karena di sini aku tak harus mengumpulkan keberanian hanya untuk membawa pulang kekecewaan. Karena di sini, aku adalah aku.
Mungkin benar adanya aku memang si jago kandang.

Indeed

2011-08-04T07:22:00.003+07:00

"It's hard to say goodbye to something that gives you so much comfort. Something that you're so used to. Something that has continuously been in your life. It's kind of like you lose a part of yourself when you go your separate ways. -a part of you that you may never get back, and if you did it, it would never be exactly the same. It's just hard to say goodbye in general."

(source)

Quoted

2011-08-04T06:59:00.000+07:00

“Sudah hampir tiga tahun aku begini. Dua puluh delapan bulan. Kalikan tiga puluh. Kalikan dua puluh empat. Kalikan enam puluh. Kalikan lagi enam puluh. Kalikan lagi enam puluh. Niscaya akan kau dapatkan angka ini: 4.354.560.000 Itulah banyaknya milisekon sejak pertama aku jatuh cinta kepadamu. Angka itu bisa lebih fantastis kalau ditarik sampai skala nano. Silakan cek. Dan aku berani jamin engkau masih ada di situ. Di tiap inti detik, dan di dalamnya lagi, dan lagi, dan lagi…”
-Dewi Lestari, Selagi Kau Lelap (2000)-

Can't wait...Like Crazy!

2011-08-03T22:22:00.001+07:00

I'll miss you, too

2011-08-03T19:15:00.004+07:00

So...you're leaving. For college. Today. And how did I not know? I mean, yeah, I would literally fly to the airport or the station or anywhere, to see you. But well, considering the situation between us in the last couple months, it makes sense.
Take care, okay? You know it's a completely different place right there. Be safe. Go get your dream. Make your future. Make your parent proud. Bonne chance :-)
Remember that song? (of course you are!) Everytime I hear that song, I remember you. I remember sitting in the passenger seat right next to you, wondering what you're thinking. Because honestly, darling, you are not so easy to read. And I remember, how you made that weird voice while you were driving. And of course I remember how messy your car were. But I like being there. I love sitting in that car. Because it was the only place we ever talked, like, really talked, in person.
I'm sorry we didn't work out. I don't know. Was it you? Was it me? Or was it us? But, you know what, it has been an amazing couple months. And I do not regret a thing.
I'll miss your silly grin. Your messy hair. Your face when you wore that glasses (sorry I didn't have a chance to say this in person, but you really are gorgeous!). Your smell, the strange combination between cigars and perfume. Your story, your thoughts. Everything. But most of all, I'll miss you... much much much more than the words can express.

I don't know if we're ever gonna meet again. But until then, I'll miss you.
So I guess I'll see you soon, then?
(I hope your Europe-invitation is still available for the next couple years, lol)

Take care.
Keep sporty :-)

Yeah I really am

2011-08-03T09:52:00.008+07:00

source

I'm craving for some romance. You know it's been too long...

Thank God my friends are awesome.

I don't know why I post this anyway

2011-08-03T09:46:00.001+07:00

Quoted

2011-08-02T15:10:00.001+07:00

“I may still not know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that someday I want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs. And the walls that aren’t covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. When I leave the house I will be going to a job I love, and I’ll return to a person I love. So, that’s the dream I’m working on.”

-Amber Morely-

Quoted

2011-08-02T15:08:00.002+07:00

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”

-William Shakespeare-

By saying 'leave me alone' I don't mean literally

2011-08-02T14:49:00.004+07:00

It's a shame how people, specially my friends, always connect everything about you with me. Like the only thing that matters to me is knowing how you've been doing. Can't blame them though. It's been years. There were hell of things going on between the two of us. Too much it's impossible for people to forget.

The fact that we're sharing friends, that we are on the same circle...well, nothing we can do about that. Your friends are mine, my friends are yours, we're over. But I'm fine with that, and obviously you are, too. And I don't think that me being friend with your brother, and you being friend with mine, has any impact for the to of us. We're good...right?

What I'm trying to say here is...nothing's going on between me and him. I no longer have feeling for him, I've moved on. So, people, could you please appreciate my efforts by simply 'leave me alone'? It would mean so much for me. Thank you.

PS: Heard the happy news. Good news travels fast, doesn't it? Congrats anyway! :-)

It really does hit me..

2011-08-02T14:42:00.003+07:00

It's the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you. When it hits you, I mean really hits you, all the thought and questions rush through your head at once. A sad emotion even starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder.

What if for some reason, things don't work out? How are you possible going to live without them?

Someone that was once a stranger now is the only person you know like the back of your hand. Someone you once had no emotions for, now has the power to break your heart. Someone you never used to hang out with, now owns most of your time. Someone you never thought you'd love, now owns your entire heart. Someone you once live without, you now wish to hold onto forever.

source

Quoted

2011-08-02T12:10:00.003+07:00

"People are not mirrors. They see you completely differently than the way you see yourself."

(source)

--noted.

She & Him - Gonna Get Along Without You Now

2011-08-02T12:07:00.000+07:00

u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now
u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now

You told me I was the neatest thing
You even asked me to wear your ring
You ran around with every girl in town
You didn’t even care if it got me down

u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now
u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now

You told everybody that we were friends
But this is where our friendship ends
Because all of a sudden you changed your tune
You haven’t been around since way last June

u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now
u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now

So long my honey, goodbye my dear

u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now
u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now

You told everybody that we were friends
But this is where our friendship ends
Because all of a sudden you changed your tune
You haven’t been around since way last June

u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now
u-huh, hmhm
Gonna get along without you now

So long my honey, goodbye my dear

Thank you so much, Harry Potter :')

2011-08-01T16:23:00.001+07:00

Senior Prom 2011

2011-08-01T15:39:00.004+07:00

I can't believe my high school is over...

Yes, indeed

2011-07-25T20:41:00.001+07:00

Selfish, I am

2011-07-25T19:38:00.003+07:00

"All I wanna do is to love you, a kind much closer than friends use... but I still can't say it after all we've been through..."

Here I am, again. In the state between friend and lover. How did we get here? I never meant to make you fall for me, moreover to make myself fall for you. That wasn't part of my plan, I swear.
Call me selfish, but the truth is, I love what we are. I love that we are standing in distance exactly the way I want it to be. I love it that you are more than a friend, but not yet a boyfriend. I did say I'm selfish, didn't I?
And now, how can we be friend? How can we be friend, with me knowing that you love me? How can we be friend, with me knowing that everything I do is hurting you?

I don't wanna be in a relationship, it kills me. I enjoy being single. But will you stay? If I say that, will you stay?
What am I supposed to do? What do you want me to do?

I don't want you to leave. I don't want you to come closer either.
Selfish, I am.

3 Years...

2011-06-14T23:32:00.004+07:00

3 years I've spent with these amazing people. And now my high school is finally over... Will it be the same?

Is that...true?

2011-06-13T12:34:00.000+07:00

"A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other... maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever."

-Dave Matthews-

Once in a Lifetime

2011-06-09T10:49:00.001+07:00

Copied from Hanif Abida

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who steals your attention
but you're still too young to do anything

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who makes you fall for
but has no intention to catch you

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who introduces you to lots of new things and playing a role as teacher and opener of your gate
but can't continue accompanying you to the rest of your journey

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who just plays around when you think it really means a thing
and gets serious just when you start take it as jokes

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who does whatever it takes to win your heart
but you simply just not interested

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who loves you the wrong way

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who you feel comfortable with and also always missing spending time with you
but never say anything at all until time separates you both

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who treats you right, adore every single thing of you even details that you hate it,
but in the wrong time

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who seems to be the right one
but belongs to someone else

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
that keeps coming and leaving
until you don't know what really is the reality

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
that stays with you, you may talk with that person for hours without pretending to be someone else, accept you for who you are, caring and reminds you important stuffs
someone who brings positive influence for you and somehow makes you a better person
until you stuck in a confusion: love or friendship?

Once in a lifetime maybe you'll find someone
who you fight for, who you think is worth it, who you spends most of your time to wait and please that person because you think someday things will change and your dreams will come true
but sadly, you were wrong

And you're really lucky,
if once in a lifetime you find that someone
who has no buts
but still wait for the right time.

Simply because you're smart enough to think maybe someday you'll find the but,
or wait until time prove it
that finally,
you were right.

Adieu!

2011-06-09T10:29:00.002+07:00

The last time you drove me home, we barely talked to each other. But I, somehow, enjoyed the silence. My heart beat even faster. When all we did was just looking at each other's eyes. When all we heard was just your favorite The Stroke's songs. When all I felt was just nothing but heartbeat.

I'm gonna miss the silence we make. I'm gonna miss the awkward moment when your eyes meet mine. And I'm surely gonna miss you...

But, au revoir, I should say...

Wish you a great happy life.

See you in the right time, someday.

Je t'aime.

Kata Siapa

2011-06-09T09:23:00.002+07:00

Kata mereka,

"Sudah kami bilang.."

Benci aku. Benci ku dengar kalimat itu. Membuatku merasa seribu kali lebih bodoh padahal saat ini pun aku sudah merasa diriku sangat bodoh.

Katanya,

"Aku bilang juga apa..."

Iya iya aku tahu. Sudahlah, berhenti memojokkanku.

Kataku,

"Terus kalau sudah terlanjur begini kamu mau apa?"

Tak paham aku. Kenapa susah sekali mempercayai diriku sendiri?

Lalu, apa katamu?

June 30th..

2011-06-01T18:13:00.001+07:00

Nothing Lasts Forever

2011-05-25T20:11:00.001+07:00

by Maroon 5

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness gets us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A babe that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving all he makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It won't fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

But we have not hit the ground
Doesn't mean we're not still falling, oh..
I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Or, I Miss You too Much

2011-05-22T05:46:00.000+07:00

Peace

2011-05-22T05:27:00.002+07:00

I need peace.

source

Photoshoot: Picnic

2011-05-17T12:05:00.005+07:00

Shoots!

2011-05-17T12:02:00.002+07:00

Goodbye is never a good thing

2011-05-10T19:50:00.000+07:00

Why is it so hard for me to say goodbye to you, even though I have every reason to? Every time I try to, I always end up crying, questioning my decision, and in the end of the day…I just crawl to you, saying I’m sorry and how I didn’t mean the goodbye.
Shame on me.

Keira

2011-05-10T16:30:00.000+07:00

You are the most annoying person in the world. I'm 100 percents sure about it. I hate how I forget of being angry with you just because you tell me those random things.

Like, "I have a kitten,"
For God's sake. We're in the middle of this big fight and all you said was just you having a new kitten. No apologize, no asking how my day was, no trying to make it up to me.
And I was just like, "Really? That's great..." and stuffs.

You: "Any idea for her name?"
Me: "Karra,"
You: "Why Karra?"
Me: "Karra means friend,"
You: "Cheryl, Abbey, Kimberley, Luna, Sasha, Ashley, Louis?"
Me: "Cheryl sounds cute,"
You: "Too nice to such a kitten,"
Me: "Keira?"
You: "Kiara?"
Me: "What's her color?"
You: "Black,"
Me: "Keira. It means dark-haired,"
You: "Keira it is then."

That's it. That random conversation made me forget how angry I was to you.
For that, I hate you.
Oh yeah, I do.
But I love you, more.

From Red Carpet Golden Globe 2011

2011-04-26T10:11:00.002+07:00

I know it's way too late writing this kind of posting, but better late than never right? So I found these two gorgeous dresses from these two gorgeous ladies. You may take a look at this :-)

Angelina Jolie in Atelier Versace

Leighton Meester in Burberry Prorsum
You know, prom night is coming up (I know it's in months but so whatttt), and those fabulous looks have given me a lot to think about. Can't wait!

Have a great day ppl ♥

Reblogged

2011-04-24T06:05:00.001+07:00

I don’t mind when our conversations get a little boring. I don’t mind when we’re texting and we run out of things to say. When we’re hanging out together but not doing anything, well I don’t mind that either. It doesn’t matter to me because I finally realized that when you’re truly in love, every moment spent together doesn’t have to be breath-taking, that you’ll still feel like the luckiest person alive even through the most unexciting times, and you will feel completely comfortable together because you know that just having each other is more than enough.

source

Nagla is Wanting Some More

2011-04-24T05:52:00.006+07:00

Before I met you, all I want was just to be a dentist, and a Mom. And I lived with that for so long, wanting no more. Then there you were, telling me how beautiful the world we live in. Telling me there are plenty things to see, a lot of culture we have to know, and millions different languages we can learn.Then one day, you asked me, “Would you travel the world with me?” and I said, no doubt, “I would.” I just knew, that's such a beautiful thing to do. And I can't stop wanting more ever since.
But life is life...we can never be sure of something. Because life isn’t something that we plan. But I'm sure of something: I wanna travel the world, without you, or even better, with you.

Another Superb Place

2011-04-23T22:09:00.002+07:00

Rothenburg, Germany

ISN'T THAT FABULOUS?!

source

I Seriously Need a Holiday

2011-04-22T09:52:00.004+07:00

Yeah, really do. You know I've been busy lately with the final grade things. I just finished my National Exam!! How cool is that huh? I think I did it quite well, but I don't know, I'm just hoping for the best.
But the war isn't over, yet. Still got the national university entrance test to beat. And I gotta do that really really well, like, the best of me. Because this is it. This is how my future begins. So, wish me luck, okay?
But before all of that, I really need to go on vacation! I need a holiday. There are so many things in my head I need to take off. And I'm feeling like going to beach. Lying in the white sand, getting myself into the water, enjoying the sunset. Aah...

source
It's located at Belitung. You know, it's where the famous Laskar Pelangi movie taken place. Isn't that gorgeous? Oh someone please take me there!!!

Sweet Switzerland

2011-04-21T21:10:00.003+07:00

I was just like, OH MY GOD. Is that for real?

I took the image from here. It's written Switzerland but it doesn't tell us where exactly the photo took place. Kind enough to let me know? :)

What's Behind My New Blog Title

2011-04-21T20:28:00.004+07:00

Nagla is an Arabian name, means a wide-eyed girl (yes I googled it). I just think it fits me. I have these big eyes and some experiences when people thought I'm half Arabian (which I'm not).

And Anonymuncle is something that I found in my Grandiloquent Dictionary. For you who doesn't know, grandiloquent is words with fancy expression which mostly used in poetries in 19th century. The word Anonymuncle means "a petty anonymous writer". I'm petty. And those words together sound cool to me.

So that's it. That's what behind my new blog title, for anybody who wanna know.

Family

2011-04-09T17:47:00.004+07:00

Sibling

2011-04-02T09:53:00.003+07:00

February 19th 2011

Classmates

2011-03-29T07:16:00.005+07:00

There is This Guy

2011-03-23T14:51:00.002+07:00

So, there is this guy, this ah-mazing guy whose smile is so f-ing gorgeous, whose voice is so awesome like those guys you hear on radio, whose hair is somehow makes him even sexier, there is this guy who is so freakin' captivating. There is this guy who kinda has my heart.

There is this guy who...disappears.

Like, hell NO.

Stuck in B/W

2011-03-23T14:46:00.002+07:00

Please Don't be in Love with Someone Else (Reblogged)

2011-03-23T14:27:00.003+07:00

Reblogged from: here

Yearbook Sneak Peak

2011-03-23T14:14:00.002+07:00

Those are photos of me and my classmates for yearbook. Aren't they good? Wanna see more? I'm afraid you should wait until July, people! :)

photo taken by: Caesar Dirgabrian

Decolor

2011-03-23T14:08:00.000+07:00

When You Say Nothing at All

2011-02-16T21:23:00.001+07:00

I don't care what we are. Let people talk, I wouldn't say a thing. Well, what to say? All I know is just it feels really amazing to be with you. And I love the way you see things, I love that you are my own brand of encyclopedia, that I can ask you about anything. I love the way you greet me in many different languages that I haven't even heard before. I love how you make those silly noises while you're driving. I love it when you drive me home and we talk about the most random things ever. I love that you're grumpy all day long, yet you're sweetest in the same time. And most of all, I love that you somehow make me feel brand new. And the things I mentioned above...are just some of the reason how I end up falling in love with you.
That's it. That's what we are. Nothing else matters.

♪...all day long I hear people talking out loud,
but when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
try as the may they can never define
what's been said between your heart and mine...♪
Ronan Keating - When You Say Nothing at All

Reblogged

2011-02-15T10:36:00.003+07:00

"I'm a daydreamer. I can't really help it. If I get bored, my mind always wanders onto something else that's completely irrelevant. Most of the time, I think out situations in my head that I either wish would happen or wish I could have done differently. I plan out what I would say, what the other people would say, what would we do. I even daydream about how my current and future lives would be different if the situation happened the way I imagined it. It's fun to fantasize, but sometimes it makes me sad. I'm always so much braver in my daydreams than I am in real life."

reblogged from here.

Confession of a Daydreamer

2011-02-15T10:26:00.003+07:00

Just changed my blog title. Why? Mmm, I just think change is good. Something about November...well, you know the whole story.
Anyway, I'm so sorry I didn't post anything for ages (like someone would read it *sigh*). I've been busy with this senior-grade-thingy.

Okay then, see you very soon *hopefully*.
XOXO

Jun's Sweet 17th

2011-01-09T18:06:00.005+07:00

Happy birthday Jun, best wishes! May Allah bless you and your family. Thanks for the invitation!:)

Location: Jamoo Resto, Shangri La Hotel

My Outfit: Top - St.Yves, Bottom - Mom's, Hijab - Noir Sur Blanc, Heels - Rotelli, Clutch -Mom's, Necklace & Bangles - Diva's

Pirates of the Carribean 4 - On Stranger Tides Official Trailer

2010-12-31T07:00:00.003+07:00

Me Likey: Aishah Amin

2010-12-28T18:41:00.005+07:00

I am falling in love with her style! It's stylish yet syar'i. You can find our lovely Aishah Amin here.

Message

2010-12-27T08:18:00.004+07:00

I know the whole story, dear. It hurt a little. But not really now. I'm okay. And I wish you're doing okay too. Take care, will ya? ☺

I love you, always do.

Black Never Goes Wrong

2010-12-26T21:09:00.001+07:00

Last Classmeeting

2010-12-24T11:14:00.005+07:00

I'm gonna miss all those moments guys :c

Happy Mother's Day!

2010-12-24T07:36:00.001+07:00

London

2010-12-18T08:24:00.004+07:00

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Polyvore-ing

2010-12-15T18:14:00.003+07:00

Bon Anniversaire

2010-12-13T07:25:00.000+07:00

This is supposed to be your birthday wishes which I wrote months ago when we were still together.

"I've ever heard an quite odd but interesting myth. It said: If a pregnant mother dream about someone or something, there's a chance that the baby will be quite like them. Weird, isn't it?
But maybe...that's true. Well, maybe not.
If it is, I bet your Mom dreamed about fairy tales, you know, something beautiful. Or maybe about superheroes. I don't know, something magical, maybe?
Because, you're kind of a fairy tale for me, kind of happy ending. But I prefer the superheroes one. Because you saved me, you drew a smile on me. And you're surely a magic, the most ah-mazing thing happened to me. Because of you, I know what happy means. Because of you, I know how great it is just to be me.
It's December 13th now. Been 18 years since that magic happened.
Happy birthday, dear.
And I love you. Love you enough to write you this silly corny cheesy birthday wishes. But I really do. I love you for who you are, and I'll say so in your next and next and next birthday.
Just be you, okay? You're cool already and you don't even have to try.
Keep saving people with that magical smile!
xoxo"

And that was just a little part of the surprise plan.

But since things are different now, I end up say this kind of thing,
"Happy birthday, have a good one. Wish you all the best. Take care."

You don't know how hard I tried to pluck up my courage, just to text you that most-common-birthday-wishes-in-the-world.

Well, happy birthday. All the best for you.

Lady in Stripes

2010-12-09T20:31:00.002+07:00

10 Things I Hate About You (1999)

2010-12-08T17:19:00.002+07:00

Just watched this movie. It wasn't great, but it was good. This movie first published in 1999, so you'll see the-last-year fashion. I love Heath Ledger here though, so perfectly charming ;p

Thing I love the most about this movie is the poem, it's simple, but for me, it's sooooo me!

10 Things I Hate About You
I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Quoted

2010-12-08T17:14:00.000+07:00

“When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were things like astronaut, president, or in my case, a princess.
When we were ten, they asked again. We answered rock star, cowboy, or, in my case, a gold medalist.
But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how about this? Who the hell knows?
This isn’t the time to make hard-and-fast decisions. This is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. Fall in love, a lot. Major in philosophy, because there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind, and change it again, because nothing’s permanent.
So, make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask what we want to be, we won’t have to guess. We’ll know.”
-Eclipse-

Quote of the Day

2010-12-05T13:03:00.001+07:00

"Bermimpilah, maka Tuhan akan memeluk mimpi-mimpimu."
-Andrea Hirata-

I'm not stalking you anymore, so, relax!

2010-12-03T20:23:00.006+07:00

♫ Pergilah kau, pergi dari hidupku, bawalah rahasiamu yang tak ingin kuketahui ♫
-Sherina - Pergilah Kau-

I don't know and I don't wanna know. Really. It's better for you, for her, for me, and for all of us.

Hypophrenia

2010-12-01T23:17:00.003+07:00

source: here

Just Wondering...

2010-11-28T08:41:00.002+07:00

Doesn't that bother you?

Where I'm Gonna Be in the Next Couple Years (amin)

2010-11-25T20:37:00.005+07:00

I was born in Grenoble, Rhone-Alpes, France. But, to be honest, I don't know anything about my birthplace. All I know is Grenoble is a small city located in south France. So I just browsed about Grenoble and found these ah-mazing pictures. OH SOMEONE PLEASE TAKE ME THERE!!
I've been dreaming to go there for so long. It's like Harry who wanted to visit Godric's Hollow so bad. Because it's a part of me. I lived there once. I spent my early childhood there (fyi I lived there for 2 years). I just feel like I need to go there. I need to know where my life began. It's all started there.
And that's exactly what I need now. To start over. I wanna leave Surabaya and its drama. I wanna leave my stupid love story. I wanna leave it all behind and start over. I wanna study there and be success. God, please hear me.

image source: here

Piece of Crap

2010-11-24T11:47:00.002+07:00

I miss you, like, really.
I'm just trying not to think about you as much as I want to.
Oh, please.
HELP.

Family Weekend

2010-11-21T19:34:00.002+07:00

This weekend was awesome. I spent it with my family. It's been too long since the last time we went out together.
Yesterday I watched Harry Potter 7 at Grand City with Mom and Reza. Too bad Dad couldn't make it, he got something to do, and Raihan was with his friends all day. I think it was a good, the best of all Harry Potter Movies. Can't wait to watch the second part yaaay :D

Me & Mom, waiting Reza at XXI
And today I had family lunch at Layar Restaurant, celebrating Mom and Dad's 20th Anniversary (actually it's on November 10th). Best wishes, Mom and Dad :*
We ordered Kepiting Saus Padang, Cumi Mentega, Gurame Bakar Kecap, Kul Nenek Saus Tauco, Cah Kangkung Bawang Putih, etc. But I think the best of all was Kul Nenek Saus Tauco, seriously recommended. Worth to try ;)

Kul Nenek Saus Tauco (sorry for the bad quality of the photo)
Then before we got home, we went to Gramedia Bookstore because I wanted to buy a biology book. I bought myself Cosmo Girl November edition (i know it's already 21st but so whatttt) and Kiddo magazine. Any idea what that is? I don't know as well. I just wanted the bonus anyway. It's a Hogwarts pin! How cool is that eh?!

Stuffs I bought from Gramedia today

The cool Hogwarts pin which I'd definitely wear tomorrow for school. Can't be more excited!! :D:D
Well, just for fun, this's my outfit today ...

Stripes - thrift market (less then $1!), Maxi Skirt - Mom's, Sneakers - Converse, Brown Sling Bag - Roxy, Brown Belt - Magnolia
Anyway, I'm gonna have a math test tomorrow so I really have to stop blogging.

Gonna struggle with math tonight. Talk to you guys soon. Good night. Ciao

Today's Wishlist

2010-11-21T08:24:00.003+07:00

1. Purple-leopard Doc Mart
2. Classic Converse
3. Fuchsia Charm Bracelet
4. Scarves
5. Plain Long Sleeve Maxi Dress
6. Statement Rings
7. Boho Bag
Oh I'm craving for those so bad!! Actually I still have a plenty left in my wishlist. I'm wanting so many things I could go crazy. Well I'm only a human after all :p